Meeting with social worker continued

So, I've read the letter, which really seemed a bit sugar coated to me. It was like he said things he thought I would want to hear, like how they were star crossed lovers that just couldn't be together. (Their being together was a one time thing.) He also told me a bit about my birth mother and some family information. The social worker asked me how I felt about the letter and all this new information. I just felt emotionally drained, it was so much to hit me at once after all those years of wondering and making up my own stories about them. I think that it's pretty common for adoptees to make up stories about their birth parents.


The social worker and I discussed what I would want to do now. She felt that Bill, my birth father, seemed a bit unrealistic about his expectations. She got the impression, from talking to him on the phone, that he felt he could just "be my dad", and wasn't taking everyone else into account. Bill has never been married and has no children besides me. She and I decided that he should at least let my birth mother know that he had contacted me and let her know that she could too if she wanted. We also decided that, for now, he should correspond with me through the adoption agency and not have my last name. LOIS, that was her name! Now I don't have to refer to her as the "social worker". Yeah! Any way, Lois would forward his letters to me and I would mail mine to him. I went home from this meeting just drained! I told my parents all that had happened and what we planned to do from here. I remember my parents were eating walleye for dinner! Strange what sticks in your memory.

My birth mom, Cheri, called Lois!

OK I have to admit I was most excited about this news! I had dreamed about finding my birth mom, don't get me wrong I loved my parents, but knowing there was this women who gave birth to me and was a part of me out there somewhere, I just had to know her!
She had a long talk with Lois and Lois told me Cheri was very emotional and cried a lot, just like me! Cheri told her that she was afraid I'd hate her and that's why she was putting off finding me but that she had always planned on doing it some day. She told Lois that she has two sons that she needed to tell about me then she would write to me.............